Discouraged!

Hello, here I am again. I just came back after having another blood test in my finger and today, after all week on a diet, my reading was 20 instead of 17 as was for a couple of days last week. I am not sure that the readings are the same in every country, as I know in Spain is not, so if anyone knows how it compares with yours, maybe you can tell me something, because I told the nurse that it was quite discouraging. She said that it was because today my reading was after I had had my breakfast, while the other times I hadn't had any. But anyway, I will have the "dredful" test on Monday. I know that you all will laugh at me about it, but I have a real phobia about blood test in my arm. I faint, and only thinking about it makes me feel sick. But I know that I have to go through it, so I only hope to be brave and not spend all day lying down on a bed at the surgery!

At the moment she has given me some tablets, the name is Gliclazide and I have to take only half with my breakfast. She said that it is to help my pancreas a litle, and on Friday I will have the finger test and see if they are helping a litle. I am sorry that I am such a coward, but this morning when I was on my way to the surgery my legs were like jelly, my heart was beating like if I was running a marathon (I was in the bus!)and my mouth dry as the sand in the wilderness! I am going back to work today, she has advise me to take some glucose tablets and a multigrain bar in case my glucose gets lower as I will not be able to have my meals at regular hours.