Diabetes: Diagnosed with type 2 diabetes

I am Lennie a very new member. Recently (2 months ago) diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. I already hate it. I am not on meds yet but if my ac1 reading doesnt go down, I will be put on them. I hate poking my finger to do the tests, and I quit doing it. Due to various other issues, I see the dr so much and she gets so many blood tests that tell her where I am at I figure why should I. She has me seeing a diabetic dietician/educator and I have been told I am to eat 5-6 times a day and to keep my carb intake up, to 3-4 servings a meal with the snacks also being included in the daily goal of 12 carb servings. I dont really eat that much pasta or bread and about the only fruit I like is bananas so unless I want to eat pastry its hard to keep those levels up there. I always thought carbs were fattening so I didnt eat a lot of them. I do eat a lot of veggies though. Right now, I have to admit, I am just confused about all of it, more than a little anxious, and to tell the truth, angry as all get out at all of it. My feet and ankles and legs have started swelling on me and now I am having to start wearing the grampa socks that compress them and take meds for that along with the 5 other meds I take every day for non diabetic problems. Seems like it would be easier in the long run to just ignore the whole dang thing and just get on with the process of living till I die. Anyway, sorry to vent but wanted to be honest about where I am coming from. I have been reading the past messages and didnt really see anything about it, but I wonder. Did anyone else just get so mad they wanted to spit when they first started dealing with this mess?